What the Holy Ghost does:
Comforts
Abides with us forever
Teaches all things
Bring things to remembrance
Gives peace
Testifies of Christ
Reproves the world of sin
Brings righteousness
Guides truth
Shows things to come
Glorifies Christ
What we must do to receive it:
Keep the commandments
See and know it
Be strong and unafraid
Bear witness of it
*References from John 14-16
One thing I love in these chapters is how much Christ cared for His disciples and apostles. He knew He would have to leave them, and although it pained Him - and them, I'm sure - He continually reassured them that He would not leave them comfortless. Christ definitely wanted to make sure that they still felt safe and secure even without Him right beside them. Christ cares about us just as much and wants us to have the Holy Ghost with us to comfort, teach and protect us.
I think the biggest thing that sticks out to me right now concerning the roles of the Holy Ghost is how it teaches all things. Not just spiritual, but temporal as well. This has been my most difficult semester by far, I think. When I was completing my Associate's, I mostly had Medical Assisting classes, which I loved. I understood those! And while I came to understand statistics, chemistry and world history well enough to keep my grades up (not ideal, but up), these subjects are definitely not my forte and have taken me a lot of work. This definitely didn't happen without help, though. Sometimes the kids were actually quiet while I studied (not this week, though ;), Levi helped out with the kids and house when he could, and I was constantly enlightened and expanded to understand these mostly-foreign concepts this semester (it's been about 8 years since I took a chemistry, algebra or history class and it showed!). I anticipate it will only get harder, and I definitely need the companionship of the Holy Ghost through all of it. My family needs the Holy Ghost because I'm usually not sufficient comfort for my husband or children while I'm spending so much time with school. But Heavenly Father and Christ know this. They know me. They know how stressed and emotional (thanks, baby #3 ;) I've been this week. And they care. I have felt them caring enough to send comfort even when I don't deserve it. I have felt them caring enough to comfort my poor kids while mom sits on the couch figuring out how many moles are in 0.436g of Magnesium. I'm constantly reminded by the Holy Ghost that this will all be worth it in the end. I'm doing this for my family, and it will all work out. I honestly don't know if I could live through the hard times without the comfort of the Holy Ghost.
Friday, December 5, 2014
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Disciples of Christ
One of the topics this week questions, "Do others know that I am a disciple of Christ?" Specifically, "Do other's know I'm a disciple of Christ by the way I act?" I think I'm safe to answer "yes" to the first one, especially since I publish this blog about my beliefs on Facebook ;) But would others, who don't know me personally or at all, even assume that I follow Christ by the way I act? I honestly don't know. I think about how I handle my frustrations with my children in public - not well sometimes. I think about how easy it is for me to gossip with friends. I think about how I'm not really one to get up and move to sit with someone else in church. Today I honestly didn't really move next to anyone because I had chocolate and had already shared enough with my husband during Sunday School ;) Yes, I finished off the bag of mint truffle kisses during church today. And then I think about gluttony ha!
Do I truly follow Christ through my actions, and can others see that? Definitely not all the time. In our little activity it gives two examples of situations and asks how a disciple of Christ would respond:
*Someone you know is ridiculed or made fun of for the way he or she dresses. Have I seen this before? Yes, mostly as a teenager. What did I do? Nothing. Not standing up for them is just about as bad as joining in, in my book. I saw this "ridicule" situation more online a few years ago as mothers ridicule and judge other mothers because they aren't doing something "the right way." It got crazy! Don't we pressure ourselves enough as mothers?? We definitely don't need it from others. We should be uplifting other mothers, encouraging them and understanding that they are doing the best that they can.
*You see a new person at church. I've been the new person and I've seen new people. I've learned that I'm like many other people; not rude per se, but not usually outreaching. If we don't reach out to new members of our ward or church, though, it can definitely come off as mean and clique-ish. (At least for the women. I have no idea how men really act or feel when they move to a new ward or see a new member ;) We are supposed to be united. We are supposed to be welcoming and accepting. This is how Christ treats us; why is it so hard for us to treat others like this?
The next little part of this week's activity is to select someone that I can show more love for by being a better disciple of Christ. This definitely needs to be my husband this week. I'm getting to a very hormonal and exhausting stage of this pregnancy, and I'm definitely not as nice as I should be. I got confused yesterday when he was trying to have me do something, and I just get grouchy and frustrated easily when that happens :( This week I will be trying to speak to and treat him the way Christ would; Heaven knows He had more on His plate than an easy pregnancy and was still kind to everyone! I can try and do the same to at least the person I love most on this earth. I can try and be a better disciple this week.
Do I truly follow Christ through my actions, and can others see that? Definitely not all the time. In our little activity it gives two examples of situations and asks how a disciple of Christ would respond:
*Someone you know is ridiculed or made fun of for the way he or she dresses. Have I seen this before? Yes, mostly as a teenager. What did I do? Nothing. Not standing up for them is just about as bad as joining in, in my book. I saw this "ridicule" situation more online a few years ago as mothers ridicule and judge other mothers because they aren't doing something "the right way." It got crazy! Don't we pressure ourselves enough as mothers?? We definitely don't need it from others. We should be uplifting other mothers, encouraging them and understanding that they are doing the best that they can.
*You see a new person at church. I've been the new person and I've seen new people. I've learned that I'm like many other people; not rude per se, but not usually outreaching. If we don't reach out to new members of our ward or church, though, it can definitely come off as mean and clique-ish. (At least for the women. I have no idea how men really act or feel when they move to a new ward or see a new member ;) We are supposed to be united. We are supposed to be welcoming and accepting. This is how Christ treats us; why is it so hard for us to treat others like this?
The next little part of this week's activity is to select someone that I can show more love for by being a better disciple of Christ. This definitely needs to be my husband this week. I'm getting to a very hormonal and exhausting stage of this pregnancy, and I'm definitely not as nice as I should be. I got confused yesterday when he was trying to have me do something, and I just get grouchy and frustrated easily when that happens :( This week I will be trying to speak to and treat him the way Christ would; Heaven knows He had more on His plate than an easy pregnancy and was still kind to everyone! I can try and do the same to at least the person I love most on this earth. I can try and be a better disciple this week.
Monday, November 17, 2014
Are You Ready?
Studying the second coming of Christ this week. How should we be preparing? What should we be watching for? When will He come? Will I be ready, or will I have just procrastinated my repentance and righteousness? It brings to mind the primary song When He Comes Again, specifically the second verse:
I wonder, when He comes again,
Will I be ready there (and I actually always thought it said "then")
To look upon his loving face
And join with Him in prayer?
I think I'm pretty safe in saying that I have righteous intentions. I really want to teach my children the Gospel better and pray more often and be kinder to others... but am I really doing it? (Now we're back to principle of good, better, and best; it's good to have good intentions, but it's better to actually do them, and it's best to become the person who is just plain good.) Will I be the kind of person that actually does these things before He comes? Would I feel comfortable today joining the Savior in prayer? I'm afraid the answer is actually 'no.' How could I pray with the Savior when I haven't even mastered daily prayer?
So, how do we prepare beyond commandment keeping and righteous living? In the Joseph Smith Translation of Matthew and the Doctrine and Covenants we find a few verses of how to live in constant preparation:
D&C 87:8 "Stand ye in holy places and be not moved, until the day of the Lord come; for behold, it cometh quickly..." Go to the temple, make your home a temple, a sanctuary, strive to treat your body like a temple, a holy place.
JST Matthew 1:37 "And whoso treasureth up my word shall not be deceived, for the Son of Man shall come..." Study the scriptures. Study the actual doctrines and principles that Christ teaches to avoid deception by others.
JST Matthew 1:48, 50 "Therefore be ye also ready, for in such an hour as ye think not, the Son of Man cometh. / Blessed is that servant whom his lord, when he cometh, shall find so doing..." Just do it. Just do what you are supposed to, because if you wait, it will most likely be too late. We won't be able to hop out of our chairs when we first hear the trumpets sound and act like we've been living righteously and repenting. We have to have been doing it.
D&C 33:17 "Wherefore, be faithful, praying always, having your lamps trimmed and burning, and oil with you, that you may be ready at the coming of the Bridegroom." (And while I was writing that sentence my daughter spilled a full glass of water all over the floor and I swore. This is obviously not meant to be a "I'm perfect, so let me preach to you" kind of thing ;) We all have things we are working on, we all have lamps to keep trimmed. By cutting out the bad and doing the good, we keep our lamps ready and drops of oil within reach for when we will need them to see the Coming of the Lord.
D&C 45:57 "They have taken the Holy Spirit for their guide, and have not been deceived..." In our study of the scriptures and doctrine, we need to make sure we are being led by the Holy Ghost in order to understand truth.
Even though no one knows exactly when Christ will come again, we have been giving things to look for. In Mark 13 we are taught about signs of the Second Coming which include, false Christs, wars and rumors of wars, nations rising against nations, earthquakes in divers places, famines and "troubles." And at the end of verse 9 it says, "these are the beginnings of sorrows." This is just the beginning; it will get worse. But I think we've all seen or heard about all of these signs already, so... any day now? If Christ were to come tomorrow, would I be ready? Nope. So I'd better wake up, "lest coming suddenly he find [me] sleeping" (v 36).
But I think there is hope. We've been given the tools and the ability, we just need to do it, and then there is hope. The rest of the second verse of the song goes:
Each day I'll to do his will
And let my light so shine
That others seeing me may seek
For greater light divine.
Then, when that blessed day is here,
He'll love me and he'll say,
"You've served me well, my little child;
Come unto my arms to stay."
It should be a blessed day that we look forward to, not one that we should fear. Christ will always love us, but how wonderful will that day be if we can look to Him and say, "I have loved you, too"?
I wonder, when He comes again,
Will I be ready there (and I actually always thought it said "then")
To look upon his loving face
And join with Him in prayer?
I think I'm pretty safe in saying that I have righteous intentions. I really want to teach my children the Gospel better and pray more often and be kinder to others... but am I really doing it? (Now we're back to principle of good, better, and best; it's good to have good intentions, but it's better to actually do them, and it's best to become the person who is just plain good.) Will I be the kind of person that actually does these things before He comes? Would I feel comfortable today joining the Savior in prayer? I'm afraid the answer is actually 'no.' How could I pray with the Savior when I haven't even mastered daily prayer?
So, how do we prepare beyond commandment keeping and righteous living? In the Joseph Smith Translation of Matthew and the Doctrine and Covenants we find a few verses of how to live in constant preparation:
D&C 87:8 "Stand ye in holy places and be not moved, until the day of the Lord come; for behold, it cometh quickly..." Go to the temple, make your home a temple, a sanctuary, strive to treat your body like a temple, a holy place.
JST Matthew 1:37 "And whoso treasureth up my word shall not be deceived, for the Son of Man shall come..." Study the scriptures. Study the actual doctrines and principles that Christ teaches to avoid deception by others.
JST Matthew 1:48, 50 "Therefore be ye also ready, for in such an hour as ye think not, the Son of Man cometh. / Blessed is that servant whom his lord, when he cometh, shall find so doing..." Just do it. Just do what you are supposed to, because if you wait, it will most likely be too late. We won't be able to hop out of our chairs when we first hear the trumpets sound and act like we've been living righteously and repenting. We have to have been doing it.
D&C 33:17 "Wherefore, be faithful, praying always, having your lamps trimmed and burning, and oil with you, that you may be ready at the coming of the Bridegroom." (And while I was writing that sentence my daughter spilled a full glass of water all over the floor and I swore. This is obviously not meant to be a "I'm perfect, so let me preach to you" kind of thing ;) We all have things we are working on, we all have lamps to keep trimmed. By cutting out the bad and doing the good, we keep our lamps ready and drops of oil within reach for when we will need them to see the Coming of the Lord.
D&C 45:57 "They have taken the Holy Spirit for their guide, and have not been deceived..." In our study of the scriptures and doctrine, we need to make sure we are being led by the Holy Ghost in order to understand truth.
Even though no one knows exactly when Christ will come again, we have been giving things to look for. In Mark 13 we are taught about signs of the Second Coming which include, false Christs, wars and rumors of wars, nations rising against nations, earthquakes in divers places, famines and "troubles." And at the end of verse 9 it says, "these are the beginnings of sorrows." This is just the beginning; it will get worse. But I think we've all seen or heard about all of these signs already, so... any day now? If Christ were to come tomorrow, would I be ready? Nope. So I'd better wake up, "lest coming suddenly he find [me] sleeping" (v 36).
But I think there is hope. We've been given the tools and the ability, we just need to do it, and then there is hope. The rest of the second verse of the song goes:
Each day I'll to do his will
And let my light so shine
That others seeing me may seek
For greater light divine.
Then, when that blessed day is here,
He'll love me and he'll say,
"You've served me well, my little child;
Come unto my arms to stay."
It should be a blessed day that we look forward to, not one that we should fear. Christ will always love us, but how wonderful will that day be if we can look to Him and say, "I have loved you, too"?
Friday, November 14, 2014
Rejected By the Jews
This semester has been especially interesting to see how many of my classes intertwine with one another. Parts of my chemistry class have gone right along with my nutrition class. The math in chemistry has helped put an edge on my stats class. And my world foundation class has absolutely coincided in time periods relating to my New Testament class. I love it when they do that!
For the last two weeks in my world history class we have been studying the Roman empire and the transformation of it into Christianity. It took a good 300 years after Christ for the empire to even accept those who followed Christianity. Before this, they followed a very polytheistic religion that was very much related to a citizens' loyalty to Rome as a state. If you rejected the gods, you rejected your country. It also took on many aspects of Greek religion or beliefs, making polytheistic worship extremely widespread, including the Middle East areas where Christ taught.
My topic this week is on why the Jewish leaders rejected Christ. He was considered a Jew but was rejected by the leaders as He became more of a "threat" to the nations. It was believed throughout Rome that Christ's doctrine, or Christianity, was simply a Jewish sect, but the actual Jews thought otherwise - and knew otherwise - and I imagine that it simply ticked them off for others to think that they were basically the same. The Jewish leaders had to make a statement and make it known that they were not the same by completely rejecting Christ Himself. And the Jewish citizens followed, of course.
In Matthew 21 we read about a few parables that can be related to these happenings. The first one is about a fig tree. While traveling, Christ happened upon a fig tree that bore no fruit, just leaves. He cursed it, and it withered away (vs 17-20). In the Lord's vineyard, if you aren't bearing good fruit, even if you aren't bearing bad fruit, there just no use for the tree. The leaders rejected Him and He withdrew blessings among them.
In vs 28-32 we read about a man who had two sons and asked each of them to do something. The first said that he wouldn't but then repented and did what he was asked. The second son said he would do it and never did. In vs 31-32 Christ states, "That the publicans and the harlots go into the kingdom of God before you. For John came unto you in the way of righteousness, and ye believed him not: but the publicans and the harlots believed him: and ye, when ye had seen it, repented not afterward, that ye might believe him." The publicans and harlots - the "common" people - may have at first rejected Him, but then believed on Him as they actually understood the teachings. The leaders were taught by John and perhaps made it look like they believed for a little while, but rejected Christ and His teachings in the end.
To me, though, knowing a bit about the historical context of all these happenings puts it into a little more perspective, at least with Rome. For the Romans, rejecting and refusing to worship the "gods" was like Americans burning the flag at the foot of the White House. You're not just a rebel, you're a threat and a heretic. I'm not saying that putting Christ to death was acceptable in any regard, but I can see how a disruption among so many people and beliefs could lead to such events. Luckily for us, we have the freedom to worship any way we want, and I choose Christ.
For the last two weeks in my world history class we have been studying the Roman empire and the transformation of it into Christianity. It took a good 300 years after Christ for the empire to even accept those who followed Christianity. Before this, they followed a very polytheistic religion that was very much related to a citizens' loyalty to Rome as a state. If you rejected the gods, you rejected your country. It also took on many aspects of Greek religion or beliefs, making polytheistic worship extremely widespread, including the Middle East areas where Christ taught.
My topic this week is on why the Jewish leaders rejected Christ. He was considered a Jew but was rejected by the leaders as He became more of a "threat" to the nations. It was believed throughout Rome that Christ's doctrine, or Christianity, was simply a Jewish sect, but the actual Jews thought otherwise - and knew otherwise - and I imagine that it simply ticked them off for others to think that they were basically the same. The Jewish leaders had to make a statement and make it known that they were not the same by completely rejecting Christ Himself. And the Jewish citizens followed, of course.
In Matthew 21 we read about a few parables that can be related to these happenings. The first one is about a fig tree. While traveling, Christ happened upon a fig tree that bore no fruit, just leaves. He cursed it, and it withered away (vs 17-20). In the Lord's vineyard, if you aren't bearing good fruit, even if you aren't bearing bad fruit, there just no use for the tree. The leaders rejected Him and He withdrew blessings among them.
In vs 28-32 we read about a man who had two sons and asked each of them to do something. The first said that he wouldn't but then repented and did what he was asked. The second son said he would do it and never did. In vs 31-32 Christ states, "That the publicans and the harlots go into the kingdom of God before you. For John came unto you in the way of righteousness, and ye believed him not: but the publicans and the harlots believed him: and ye, when ye had seen it, repented not afterward, that ye might believe him." The publicans and harlots - the "common" people - may have at first rejected Him, but then believed on Him as they actually understood the teachings. The leaders were taught by John and perhaps made it look like they believed for a little while, but rejected Christ and His teachings in the end.
To me, though, knowing a bit about the historical context of all these happenings puts it into a little more perspective, at least with Rome. For the Romans, rejecting and refusing to worship the "gods" was like Americans burning the flag at the foot of the White House. You're not just a rebel, you're a threat and a heretic. I'm not saying that putting Christ to death was acceptable in any regard, but I can see how a disruption among so many people and beliefs could lead to such events. Luckily for us, we have the freedom to worship any way we want, and I choose Christ.
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Earthly and Heavenly Rewards
The New Testament is all about parables, right? Here are a few more I am studying this week ;)
The parable of the rich man; he came to Christ asking what he could do to gain eternal life. Christ replied that he should basically keep the ten commandments given to Moses. The man replied, "all these I have kept from my youth up: what lack I yet?" (Matthew 19:20)
Christ's reply to this was for the man to sell all that he had and give to the poor, but the man left in sorrow because he was rich. This goes back to my point from last week (?) about being rather than just doing. This man wanted something to do in order to gain eternal life. He was not very concerned with who he actually was becoming. Even though he was rich, this "something" - to give all he had to the poor - was too hard for him because he was not yet the kind of person that wanted to help the poor. He certainly could have done it and become closer to Christ and more like Christ because of it, but my guess is that the little things he had previously been doing - keeping the commandments - weren't changing him enough first.
When we make these kind of sacrifices Christ has promised us that we "shall sit in the throne of his glory" and that we "shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life" (vs 28-29). The verse I like the best in this parable is 26 stating that "With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." If we try to do these things alone, especially the "big" or "hard" things, we will fail. It almost seems paradoxical: in order to follow God, we need His help. That doesn't sound much like following but rather being prodded or led. (Back to the song, Child of God, "Lead me, guide me".) Isn't this how we raise our children, though? I've been asking Via for hours to pick up all the candy she spilled in my bedroom. She probably can't do it on her own and I should probably go help her ;) I've been busy balancing chemical equations and figuring out how many grams of iron are leftover in a certain reaction and haven't wanted to go help pick up candy corn. I tell myself that she made the mess and is capable of picking it up, but that's not really true. Even as adults, we make messes of our lives all the time, at least I do, and am still in desperate need of Christ's help to pick up the pieces. By doing the things He asks of us and letting Him guide us, we are then able to follow Him.
The second parable is in Matthew 20 about the laborers in the vineyard all getting paid the same amount for different amounts of time worked. (This sounds like the beginning of a heat equation to me *eye roll*) Anyway, each laborer agrees to work the day for a penny, so those that are present in the morning start then. The lord of the vineyard goes out and recruits more laborers at the sixth, ninth and eleventh hours and pays them a penny for the day as well. Obviously the ones who have worked all day feel taken advantage of since they had been there all day in the heat of the day and were paid the same amount as those who worked only one hour. The lord replies, "Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny? Take that thine is (take what we agreed upon) and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee. Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own?" (vs 13-15).
It does sound harsh, right? Some of us probably even get like this with our actual employment rates. But that's not exactly what Christ is trying to portray here. What about those who come unto Christ in the eleventh hour? Are they not just as blessed as those who have lived His gospel all their lives? Will they receive less eternal life because they were not recruited until later? No. This can bring comfort to many who have not had the opportunity to live the Gospel their whole lives. No matter when we come unto Christ, He has promised us blessings for following him - or for allowing ourselves to be led by Him. For those of us that have been "working" in the vineyard all day, it gives us the opportunity to learn more and perhaps some of us need more practice ;) I definitely need more practice with patience, especially when it comes to Via peeing on the stairs, which I now have to go clean up...
The parable of the rich man; he came to Christ asking what he could do to gain eternal life. Christ replied that he should basically keep the ten commandments given to Moses. The man replied, "all these I have kept from my youth up: what lack I yet?" (Matthew 19:20)
Christ's reply to this was for the man to sell all that he had and give to the poor, but the man left in sorrow because he was rich. This goes back to my point from last week (?) about being rather than just doing. This man wanted something to do in order to gain eternal life. He was not very concerned with who he actually was becoming. Even though he was rich, this "something" - to give all he had to the poor - was too hard for him because he was not yet the kind of person that wanted to help the poor. He certainly could have done it and become closer to Christ and more like Christ because of it, but my guess is that the little things he had previously been doing - keeping the commandments - weren't changing him enough first.
When we make these kind of sacrifices Christ has promised us that we "shall sit in the throne of his glory" and that we "shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life" (vs 28-29). The verse I like the best in this parable is 26 stating that "With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." If we try to do these things alone, especially the "big" or "hard" things, we will fail. It almost seems paradoxical: in order to follow God, we need His help. That doesn't sound much like following but rather being prodded or led. (Back to the song, Child of God, "Lead me, guide me".) Isn't this how we raise our children, though? I've been asking Via for hours to pick up all the candy she spilled in my bedroom. She probably can't do it on her own and I should probably go help her ;) I've been busy balancing chemical equations and figuring out how many grams of iron are leftover in a certain reaction and haven't wanted to go help pick up candy corn. I tell myself that she made the mess and is capable of picking it up, but that's not really true. Even as adults, we make messes of our lives all the time, at least I do, and am still in desperate need of Christ's help to pick up the pieces. By doing the things He asks of us and letting Him guide us, we are then able to follow Him.
The second parable is in Matthew 20 about the laborers in the vineyard all getting paid the same amount for different amounts of time worked. (This sounds like the beginning of a heat equation to me *eye roll*) Anyway, each laborer agrees to work the day for a penny, so those that are present in the morning start then. The lord of the vineyard goes out and recruits more laborers at the sixth, ninth and eleventh hours and pays them a penny for the day as well. Obviously the ones who have worked all day feel taken advantage of since they had been there all day in the heat of the day and were paid the same amount as those who worked only one hour. The lord replies, "Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny? Take that thine is (take what we agreed upon) and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee. Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own?" (vs 13-15).
It does sound harsh, right? Some of us probably even get like this with our actual employment rates. But that's not exactly what Christ is trying to portray here. What about those who come unto Christ in the eleventh hour? Are they not just as blessed as those who have lived His gospel all their lives? Will they receive less eternal life because they were not recruited until later? No. This can bring comfort to many who have not had the opportunity to live the Gospel their whole lives. No matter when we come unto Christ, He has promised us blessings for following him - or for allowing ourselves to be led by Him. For those of us that have been "working" in the vineyard all day, it gives us the opportunity to learn more and perhaps some of us need more practice ;) I definitely need more practice with patience, especially when it comes to Via peeing on the stairs, which I now have to go clean up...
Friday, October 31, 2014
Disciples of Christ
What does it mean to be a disciple of Christ?
Be willing to hear His words
Have a desire to pray
Readily repentant
Friendly to all
Humble
Sharing of our abundance
Undoubting
Watchful
Always striving to return to Him
Diligent in serving others
Committed
These are just a few of the traits or qualities that true disciples of Christ have. This is who disciples of Christ have become or at least are trying to become. Being a disciple, to me, is more about just doing these things. It's about being like Christ.
I sing the song"I Am a Child of God" most nights to my kids at bedtime. I change the word "do" in the phrase "teach me all that I must do" to "be" when I sing it to them. Via got mad at me the other night. She insisted that it is, of course, "do" in the song. (She also insists that church songs are to be sung only at church, and I can't sing them to her at bedtime *eye roll.*) While she is correct about the actual wording of the song, I still like my way more :) I tried to explain - to a 2 year old, 3 in 13 days! - that it's about who we are and not just about what we do.
I emphasize just, though, because I do believe that our actions are the greatest indicators of who we truly are most of the time. But if we are simply going through the motions of prayer, church attendance, and partaking of the Sacrament, Heavenly Father will know. He knows who we really are. Doing these things are definitely important, but they are designed for us to do them and become someone other than our natural, mortal selves. We must be striving to be while we are doing all these things.
One of the things that I will be working on next month is prayer. I'm horrible at praying consistently. It's so easy for me to fall out of the habit and so hard for me to get back in for some reason. I've noticed lately, though, that neither of my kids really have that desire to pray. I definitely need to do a better job of being an example of it, especially while I am at home with them all the time for the next few months. It's up to me to show them how to be a disciple of Christ. I'd better practice what I preach, right? ;)
Be willing to hear His words
Have a desire to pray
Readily repentant
Friendly to all
Humble
Sharing of our abundance
Undoubting
Watchful
Always striving to return to Him
Diligent in serving others
Committed
These are just a few of the traits or qualities that true disciples of Christ have. This is who disciples of Christ have become or at least are trying to become. Being a disciple, to me, is more about just doing these things. It's about being like Christ.
I sing the song"I Am a Child of God" most nights to my kids at bedtime. I change the word "do" in the phrase "teach me all that I must do" to "be" when I sing it to them. Via got mad at me the other night. She insisted that it is, of course, "do" in the song. (She also insists that church songs are to be sung only at church, and I can't sing them to her at bedtime *eye roll.*) While she is correct about the actual wording of the song, I still like my way more :) I tried to explain - to a 2 year old, 3 in 13 days! - that it's about who we are and not just about what we do.
I emphasize just, though, because I do believe that our actions are the greatest indicators of who we truly are most of the time. But if we are simply going through the motions of prayer, church attendance, and partaking of the Sacrament, Heavenly Father will know. He knows who we really are. Doing these things are definitely important, but they are designed for us to do them and become someone other than our natural, mortal selves. We must be striving to be while we are doing all these things.
One of the things that I will be working on next month is prayer. I'm horrible at praying consistently. It's so easy for me to fall out of the habit and so hard for me to get back in for some reason. I've noticed lately, though, that neither of my kids really have that desire to pray. I definitely need to do a better job of being an example of it, especially while I am at home with them all the time for the next few months. It's up to me to show them how to be a disciple of Christ. I'd better practice what I preach, right? ;)
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Cut It Off, Pluck It Out
Perhaps you have read the scriptures in the New Testament that talk about cutting off the hand or foot or plucking out the eye if they offend you. Yuck. Being maimed... not my idea of a good time. Of course, Christ is speaking in yet another parable ;) and Joseph Smith made it nice and easy with the translation he gave. He stated, "And a man's hand is his friend, and his foot, also; and a man's eye are they of his own household."
Well, keeping that in mind, let me give you the actual scriptures found in Mark 9. "And if thy hand offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter into life maimed, than having two hands to go into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched (v 43). And if thy foot offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter halt into life, than having two feet to be cast into hell... (v 45). And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out: it is better for thee to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye, than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire (v 47)." Nice and graphic, right? Going into the medical field you would think that blood and amputations wouldn't bother me, but I'm really getting worse as I get older. I read Oedipus the King last week and nearly gagged when he gouged out his own eyes. Maybe it's just the pregnancy... But I digress...
The first thing that comes to mind - even knowing the true meaning of these verses - is "aren't we supposed to be friendly with everyone and be kind to all? Aren't we supposed to include everyone, especially family?" Yes. Kindness and inclusion are key principles of the Gospel, but we can also go back to Nephi having to slay Laban: "It is better that one man perish than a nation should dwindle and perish in unbelief" (1 Nephi 4:13). If someone is dragging us down, dragging the light of Christ out of us through temptations, it is best that we cut off the source and try to keep ourselves and posterity on the right path. I read last week that it was better to have 4 quarters than 100 pennies for friends. Glean what you will from that; I thought it was interesting :)
The second astonishing questions one may ask is, "even family?" Yep. Even family applies here. Don't get me wrong, I completely love my family. All of them. In-laws just the same as my side. But there may come a point where it's just not conducive to be around a certain family member. I love my father. I may pity him more, but I still love him. I just cannot be around him much. It is more detrimental for myself and my family to spend time with him than to simply keep a certain distance while staying in touch. I've been working on being kind the last few years (I wasn't before; I was still pretty angry), and including him if I feel like the situation presents, but I can't offer him a home. Much of his family has unfortunately had to "pluck him out" as well in order to keep their immediate families in tact and - perhaps just as important - not allowing him a leg to stand on after he's cut off all the others (see what I did there? ;) My mother tried to make a secure family with him for years but finally had to pluck him out and leave. It was better for everyone. So, sad as it it, this principle, I truly believe, applies to anyone that can bring us down instead of lifting us up.
One thing that my assignment prompt brought up that I hadn't thought much about was the idea of being free especially regarding the Word of Wisdom and staying chaste. It's such a social norm to drink and sleep around these days. It looks so glamorous, but they don't really show you the consequences on Tv shows. I lived the consequences of an alcoholic parent and a broken family. I've seen the consequences of unplanned pregnancies outside of marriage. Our first two kids weren't planned, but we've brought them into a stable marriage and have both committed to them and their wellbeing. Without saying that all children bring with them is bondage, there truly is a certain amount of freedom that you lose when you become a parent, and when they are brought into a sticky situation, the less free you are as the situation brings even more stress and hardships with it. You can lose your freedom to alcohol, drugs, even food addictions, STDs, or a sudden pregnancy that you may not have wanted. We have the choice to cut out these temptations and the people that bring them. Harsh and sad, but I really believe it is true. Seek the things and people that edify and uplift you. Don't let anyone drag you down. You have the choice to be free.
Well, keeping that in mind, let me give you the actual scriptures found in Mark 9. "And if thy hand offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter into life maimed, than having two hands to go into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched (v 43). And if thy foot offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter halt into life, than having two feet to be cast into hell... (v 45). And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out: it is better for thee to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye, than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire (v 47)." Nice and graphic, right? Going into the medical field you would think that blood and amputations wouldn't bother me, but I'm really getting worse as I get older. I read Oedipus the King last week and nearly gagged when he gouged out his own eyes. Maybe it's just the pregnancy... But I digress...
The first thing that comes to mind - even knowing the true meaning of these verses - is "aren't we supposed to be friendly with everyone and be kind to all? Aren't we supposed to include everyone, especially family?" Yes. Kindness and inclusion are key principles of the Gospel, but we can also go back to Nephi having to slay Laban: "It is better that one man perish than a nation should dwindle and perish in unbelief" (1 Nephi 4:13). If someone is dragging us down, dragging the light of Christ out of us through temptations, it is best that we cut off the source and try to keep ourselves and posterity on the right path. I read last week that it was better to have 4 quarters than 100 pennies for friends. Glean what you will from that; I thought it was interesting :)
The second astonishing questions one may ask is, "even family?" Yep. Even family applies here. Don't get me wrong, I completely love my family. All of them. In-laws just the same as my side. But there may come a point where it's just not conducive to be around a certain family member. I love my father. I may pity him more, but I still love him. I just cannot be around him much. It is more detrimental for myself and my family to spend time with him than to simply keep a certain distance while staying in touch. I've been working on being kind the last few years (I wasn't before; I was still pretty angry), and including him if I feel like the situation presents, but I can't offer him a home. Much of his family has unfortunately had to "pluck him out" as well in order to keep their immediate families in tact and - perhaps just as important - not allowing him a leg to stand on after he's cut off all the others (see what I did there? ;) My mother tried to make a secure family with him for years but finally had to pluck him out and leave. It was better for everyone. So, sad as it it, this principle, I truly believe, applies to anyone that can bring us down instead of lifting us up.
One thing that my assignment prompt brought up that I hadn't thought much about was the idea of being free especially regarding the Word of Wisdom and staying chaste. It's such a social norm to drink and sleep around these days. It looks so glamorous, but they don't really show you the consequences on Tv shows. I lived the consequences of an alcoholic parent and a broken family. I've seen the consequences of unplanned pregnancies outside of marriage. Our first two kids weren't planned, but we've brought them into a stable marriage and have both committed to them and their wellbeing. Without saying that all children bring with them is bondage, there truly is a certain amount of freedom that you lose when you become a parent, and when they are brought into a sticky situation, the less free you are as the situation brings even more stress and hardships with it. You can lose your freedom to alcohol, drugs, even food addictions, STDs, or a sudden pregnancy that you may not have wanted. We have the choice to cut out these temptations and the people that bring them. Harsh and sad, but I really believe it is true. Seek the things and people that edify and uplift you. Don't let anyone drag you down. You have the choice to be free.
Friday, October 17, 2014
Hunger and Thirst
This week we studied Christ's sermon about the bread of life found in John chapter 6 among other things, but this is what struck me the most. In Sunday School this week someone mentioned that being hungry and being thirsty are two very different things. I really liked the comment, but it really hit me as I was reading this story.
In John 6:35 it states "And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst." I loved that! He specifically gives the difference between hunger and thirst and how to combat them. If we come unto Christ, we will never hunger. If we believe Christ, we will never thirst.
I'm sitting here just having eaten a frozen burrito. I was hungry, but I wasn't thirsty. Well, after eating (the entire burrito in about a minute) I'm thirsty now. They build upon each other. If we but come unto Christ we will be inclined to believe Him, I think. We will want to know more. We will want to keep coming back and will then believe more.
I'm also taking a nutrition class this semester - you wouldn't think so since I just ate a frozen burrito ;) but I am - but it made me think about how we need both food and water to provide for all the processes of our body. We need both. I also likened this with the commandment to "feast upon the words of Christ" and I would add "Atonement" to words. With Thanksgiving coming up I thought about how a feast really is about eating and drinking. I don't ever have my Thanksgiving without a few bottles of Martinelli's ;)
This all led me, of course, to the Sacrament. Why don't we, as Latter-day Saints, just have a cracker and call it good? Or a piece of cake? A piece of cake would be great, don't you think? (I think I'll actually have some cake after I'm done with this post!) We take the Sacrament with bread and water because 1) Christ is the "bread of life" and water is the most pure drink there is (and as for Christ and His disciples, the pure wine), and 2) we need both; we need bread and water to sustain our mortal lives. We eat of His flesh and drink of His blood because they are both different. We needed Him to come in the flesh and teach us the Gospel and we need to believe that the Atonement, performed with His precious blood, is the way to everlasting life.
In John 6:35 it states "And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst." I loved that! He specifically gives the difference between hunger and thirst and how to combat them. If we come unto Christ, we will never hunger. If we believe Christ, we will never thirst.
I'm sitting here just having eaten a frozen burrito. I was hungry, but I wasn't thirsty. Well, after eating (the entire burrito in about a minute) I'm thirsty now. They build upon each other. If we but come unto Christ we will be inclined to believe Him, I think. We will want to know more. We will want to keep coming back and will then believe more.
I'm also taking a nutrition class this semester - you wouldn't think so since I just ate a frozen burrito ;) but I am - but it made me think about how we need both food and water to provide for all the processes of our body. We need both. I also likened this with the commandment to "feast upon the words of Christ" and I would add "Atonement" to words. With Thanksgiving coming up I thought about how a feast really is about eating and drinking. I don't ever have my Thanksgiving without a few bottles of Martinelli's ;)
This all led me, of course, to the Sacrament. Why don't we, as Latter-day Saints, just have a cracker and call it good? Or a piece of cake? A piece of cake would be great, don't you think? (I think I'll actually have some cake after I'm done with this post!) We take the Sacrament with bread and water because 1) Christ is the "bread of life" and water is the most pure drink there is (and as for Christ and His disciples, the pure wine), and 2) we need both; we need bread and water to sustain our mortal lives. We eat of His flesh and drink of His blood because they are both different. We needed Him to come in the flesh and teach us the Gospel and we need to believe that the Atonement, performed with His precious blood, is the way to everlasting life.
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Say What You Mean
So this week my topic is The Lord Often Taught With Parables, and I have a set of questions to answer for the assignment. But first, let's talk about why. Why did He talk in parables when He could have just come right out and say what He meant? In one of my communications classes - the only one I ever took, actually - our instructor would always say "say what you mean, mean what you say." Great advice, especially for someone (like me) who doesn't like to say much of anything concerning feelings and emotions. My poor husband can attest. It was a rough first year of marriage gaining some ground on communication ;) He still brings us the time I locked myself in the bathroom because I didn't want to talk at all. I didn't grow up expressing my feelings, and I had no idea how to do it. It still takes me a while sometimes to even process how I'm feeling and why. And as for the "mean what you say" part... Well, I think most of us would agree that when a woman says she's "fine", she's not fine.
So why can't I just talk in parables and similes and metaphors or even through actions - such as locking myself in a bathroom?? Why am I expected to come out and say exactly how I feel?? Easy answer: I'm not Christ. The other answer is that a marriage or close relationships are completely different than Christ teaching and instructing. If Christ had said exactly what He meant the scriptures would be at least twice as long! He meant many things so He simply told a short story that covered those many meanings. We all interpret the scriptures a little bit differently, and even personally we interpret them differently at different times. Why use many words when you can say so much with just a few?
Another reason for this way of communication is given right in between the parables. In Matthew 13:10-11 it says, "Why speakest thou unto them in parables? He answered and said unto them, Because it is given unto you to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it is not given." We only understand the parables as much as we are willing to. If we don't put for the effort to see and hear the meanings we simply won't understand them, and then our understanding in halted. Line upon line. Precept upon precept.
The other thing I wanted to mention that I thought was interesting was the relationship between the word "parable" coming from the word "parabola." Just in case it has been about 10 years since you've taken a geometry class - like me - here is a picture:
Last week in my history class we studied the long journey and the monomyth. They explained this by using a picture kind of like this. Theirs was better, but I couldn't find it. Anyway, during this journey or story (parable) imagine you start at one of the arrow points in the "known" world. We cross over the x-axis (time) into the "unknown" world and go through this process of learning and becoming. We follow the parabola back into the known world and have brought back with us some kind of knowledge. I just thought it was interesting to apply this parabolic journey into the idea of the parables of Christ as well.
Okay, onto the questions and their corresponding parables...
What describes the future growth of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and how do you explain the remarkable growth of the Church considering it is fairly new compared to most world religions and started in the small American frontier?
I had never really thought about how very new this church is in relation to Islam or Catholicism and others. And it has grown quite large very quickly. I've heard it and said it many times before: The Gospel is perfect, the Church is not. And I do believe that. But we must be doing something right! We can compare this growth to the parable of the mustard seed (Matthew 13:31-32). It started with one boy and one question. So small. The mustard seed is "the least of all seeds: but when it is grown, it is the greatest among herbs, and becometh a tree."
Why does the Church send out so many missionaries?
We believe that it is our responsibility to gather others into the Gospel. We can compare this to the parable of the net found in Matthew 13:47-50. "The kingdom of heaven is like unto a net, that was cast into the sea, and gathered of every kind."
Why are some members of the Church willing to sacrifice so much worldly wealth and recognition in order to maintain membership in the Church?
A pearl of great price (Matthew 13:45-46). Those that see the Church as this pearl with great value are willing to give up everything else to obtain it. The merchant man "went and sold all that he had, and bought it."
Why so some members leave the Church?
This is where our roots come in. I love Elder Nelson's talk about religion, Let Your Faith Show. "Religion" comes from the word "ligate" which means to tie back to. Religion provides the means to tie us back to Christ. Are we tied to Christ through our religion or are we simply tied to the Church? There are many reasons why people leave the Church, and I'm definitely not going to delve into them right now. It's lunch time, and I'm hungry ;) But if we don't accept the Church as simply a means for tying us to Christ and the fullness of His Gospel then I can definitely see how easy it would be to leave the Church and all its Mormon culture. We have to find root in Christ in order to survive this culture sometimes.
Let's look at Matthew 13:3-8, the parable of the seeds. "Behold, a sower went forth to sow; And when he sowed, some seeds fell by the way side, and the fowls came and devoured them up: Some fell upon stony places, where they had not much earth: and forthwith they sprung up, because they had no deepness of earth: And when the sun was up, they were scorched; and because they had no root, they withered away. And some fell among thorns; and the throne sprung up, and choked them: But other fell into good ground, and brought forth fruit." Whether we are in or out of the LDS Church, we must find root in Christ if we expect to grow instead of wither away.
There is happiness in the Gospel, which means we can find happiness in the Church. We just have to be willing to look past the "known" sometimes and feast upon the "unknown."
So why can't I just talk in parables and similes and metaphors or even through actions - such as locking myself in a bathroom?? Why am I expected to come out and say exactly how I feel?? Easy answer: I'm not Christ. The other answer is that a marriage or close relationships are completely different than Christ teaching and instructing. If Christ had said exactly what He meant the scriptures would be at least twice as long! He meant many things so He simply told a short story that covered those many meanings. We all interpret the scriptures a little bit differently, and even personally we interpret them differently at different times. Why use many words when you can say so much with just a few?
Another reason for this way of communication is given right in between the parables. In Matthew 13:10-11 it says, "Why speakest thou unto them in parables? He answered and said unto them, Because it is given unto you to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it is not given." We only understand the parables as much as we are willing to. If we don't put for the effort to see and hear the meanings we simply won't understand them, and then our understanding in halted. Line upon line. Precept upon precept.
The other thing I wanted to mention that I thought was interesting was the relationship between the word "parable" coming from the word "parabola." Just in case it has been about 10 years since you've taken a geometry class - like me - here is a picture:
Last week in my history class we studied the long journey and the monomyth. They explained this by using a picture kind of like this. Theirs was better, but I couldn't find it. Anyway, during this journey or story (parable) imagine you start at one of the arrow points in the "known" world. We cross over the x-axis (time) into the "unknown" world and go through this process of learning and becoming. We follow the parabola back into the known world and have brought back with us some kind of knowledge. I just thought it was interesting to apply this parabolic journey into the idea of the parables of Christ as well.
Okay, onto the questions and their corresponding parables...
What describes the future growth of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and how do you explain the remarkable growth of the Church considering it is fairly new compared to most world religions and started in the small American frontier?
I had never really thought about how very new this church is in relation to Islam or Catholicism and others. And it has grown quite large very quickly. I've heard it and said it many times before: The Gospel is perfect, the Church is not. And I do believe that. But we must be doing something right! We can compare this growth to the parable of the mustard seed (Matthew 13:31-32). It started with one boy and one question. So small. The mustard seed is "the least of all seeds: but when it is grown, it is the greatest among herbs, and becometh a tree."
Why does the Church send out so many missionaries?
We believe that it is our responsibility to gather others into the Gospel. We can compare this to the parable of the net found in Matthew 13:47-50. "The kingdom of heaven is like unto a net, that was cast into the sea, and gathered of every kind."
Why are some members of the Church willing to sacrifice so much worldly wealth and recognition in order to maintain membership in the Church?
A pearl of great price (Matthew 13:45-46). Those that see the Church as this pearl with great value are willing to give up everything else to obtain it. The merchant man "went and sold all that he had, and bought it."
Why so some members leave the Church?
This is where our roots come in. I love Elder Nelson's talk about religion, Let Your Faith Show. "Religion" comes from the word "ligate" which means to tie back to. Religion provides the means to tie us back to Christ. Are we tied to Christ through our religion or are we simply tied to the Church? There are many reasons why people leave the Church, and I'm definitely not going to delve into them right now. It's lunch time, and I'm hungry ;) But if we don't accept the Church as simply a means for tying us to Christ and the fullness of His Gospel then I can definitely see how easy it would be to leave the Church and all its Mormon culture. We have to find root in Christ in order to survive this culture sometimes.
Let's look at Matthew 13:3-8, the parable of the seeds. "Behold, a sower went forth to sow; And when he sowed, some seeds fell by the way side, and the fowls came and devoured them up: Some fell upon stony places, where they had not much earth: and forthwith they sprung up, because they had no deepness of earth: And when the sun was up, they were scorched; and because they had no root, they withered away. And some fell among thorns; and the throne sprung up, and choked them: But other fell into good ground, and brought forth fruit." Whether we are in or out of the LDS Church, we must find root in Christ if we expect to grow instead of wither away.
There is happiness in the Gospel, which means we can find happiness in the Church. We just have to be willing to look past the "known" sometimes and feast upon the "unknown."
Thursday, October 2, 2014
Faith Precedes the Miracle
It hit me one day as I was sitting in seminary in high school - either my Freshman or Sophomore year, I don't remember - but for some reason it hit home that faith precedes the miracle. There is some kind of faith, somewhere, from someone... before the miracle happens. It's like fuel for an engine; if there is no gas in the car, it won't start. It's that simple. Maybe your car is completely empty, but before that car will start someone needs to come to you with a little red gas can.
There are many, many examples throughout the scriptures, but particularly in the New Testament as this is where most of Christ's life is recorded. Miracles abounded! His entire life was a miracle it seemed! I want to touch on a few examples - since that is part of the assignment this week ;) - but also to show that there was always someone that came to Christ with the faith in Him the He could do ... whatever. Really.
Matthew 8:1-4 Jesus heals the leper. The leper himself had faith enough to approach the Savior and ask Him for cleanliness.
Matthew 8:5-13 Jesus heals a man's servant of palsy. I really think this one is wonderful because it tells us that this man had authority; he had soldiers and servants that were under his command, but he was humble enough to ask Christ - not for himself, but for someone else - to spare a little healing power. And even after asking, the man says, "Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof: but speak the word only, and my servant shall be healed." I love it. This man didn't even see himself as an equal to Christ as a master only with different authority; he knew Christ was the Master.
Matthew 8:14-15 Jesus heal's Peter's mother-in-law from a fever. My son has had a fever since last night. Poor kid. (Am I horrible in admitting that it's kind of nice just cuddling him instead of cleaning up after his messes? No? Didn't think so ;) Anyway, we're mostly letting him ride his fever out. It's what fevers do. Now, it doesn't say in these verses exactly how ill this mother was, but we know that as soon as "he touched her hand, [...] the fever left her." Fevers don't just vanish... Unless it is the will of God and someone has the faith that it can be done. I'm sure Peter himself and his mother-in-law both had faith because as soon as that fever was gone "she arose, and ministered unto them."
Matthew 8:16 One verse. "When the even was come, they brought unto him many that were possessed with devils: and he cast out the spirits with his word, and healed all that were sick." Whoever they were, they had faith. They cared enough about their fellow men that they brought them to Christ. The other part I love about this and a few other verses throughout is that Christ healed all of them. He took the time to actually care for each of them. He didn't just perform His miracle as a testimony of His power and get out of town. He healed each of them that needed healing.
Matthew 8:23-27 Jesus and His disciples are on the ship with a raging tempest. Jesus slept as "the ship was covered with the waves." His disciples finally decided to wake Him. There's faith, right? Apparently not. Christ's response was, "Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith." What?? Essentially, this says to me, "Why in the world would you think I would let you drown? You are my disciples. You have work to do! Where is the faith I expected you to have?" Of course, He calmed the winds and the sea "and there was a great calm." Where is our faith? Do we ever think He is just letting us drown?
Matthew 8:28-34 Not gonna lie. This one is a little funky to me. Mostly the wording. "Two possessed with devils, coming out of the tombs, exceeding fierce [...] What have we to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of God? art thou come hither to torment us before the time?" And then the devils asked that they be sent into a pig's body as that would be better than no body at all. It seems even these devils - who knew exactly who Jesus was, the Son of God - had faith, yes faith, enough to ask for a little mercy concerning their banishment. Interesting.
Matthew 9:20-22; Mark 5:25-34 The woman with the issue of blood. She simply touched the hem of His garment and knew she would be healed. Christ felt the "virtue" or power go out of Him when she did. He knew her, even in a swarm of other people, and stopped to say "thy faith had made thee whole." Perfect faith.
Matthew 9:27-31 Jesus heals two blind men. They simply come to Him, He asks, "Believe ye that I am able to do this?" They said 'yes' and they were simply healed.
Mark 2:1-12 Another man with palsy, carried by four others to the house where Jesus was. The house was so crowded, though, that they uncovered the roof and lowered the sick man in. They were faithfully desperate. And as soon as Christ saw their faith, He healed this man too.
So many miracles. So great power! At times it can seem like God is not here for us anymore. Miracles like these don't abound like they did then. It's a different era, a different dispensation. But the truth is, miracles still occur. Whether they are obvious or not, they happen. As far as healing goes, I think it's a miracle that "ordinary" men can now heal as Jesus did. Of course, those ordinary men were truly blessed with light and knowledge from God that led to this great expansion of the medical world. That is healing power. Men with their medicine can heal leprosy and issues of bleeding. But that ultimate miracle - that miracle of being saved - can only come through Christ forgiving us of our sins and making us whole. But there needs to be faith first. Many say that there is no God or that He has abandoned us because we see a lack in expected miracles. Shame on us, we of little faith...
Exercise the faith and the miracle will follow. And you will notice it.
There are many, many examples throughout the scriptures, but particularly in the New Testament as this is where most of Christ's life is recorded. Miracles abounded! His entire life was a miracle it seemed! I want to touch on a few examples - since that is part of the assignment this week ;) - but also to show that there was always someone that came to Christ with the faith in Him the He could do ... whatever. Really.
Matthew 8:1-4 Jesus heals the leper. The leper himself had faith enough to approach the Savior and ask Him for cleanliness.
Matthew 8:5-13 Jesus heals a man's servant of palsy. I really think this one is wonderful because it tells us that this man had authority; he had soldiers and servants that were under his command, but he was humble enough to ask Christ - not for himself, but for someone else - to spare a little healing power. And even after asking, the man says, "Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof: but speak the word only, and my servant shall be healed." I love it. This man didn't even see himself as an equal to Christ as a master only with different authority; he knew Christ was the Master.
Matthew 8:14-15 Jesus heal's Peter's mother-in-law from a fever. My son has had a fever since last night. Poor kid. (Am I horrible in admitting that it's kind of nice just cuddling him instead of cleaning up after his messes? No? Didn't think so ;) Anyway, we're mostly letting him ride his fever out. It's what fevers do. Now, it doesn't say in these verses exactly how ill this mother was, but we know that as soon as "he touched her hand, [...] the fever left her." Fevers don't just vanish... Unless it is the will of God and someone has the faith that it can be done. I'm sure Peter himself and his mother-in-law both had faith because as soon as that fever was gone "she arose, and ministered unto them."
Matthew 8:16 One verse. "When the even was come, they brought unto him many that were possessed with devils: and he cast out the spirits with his word, and healed all that were sick." Whoever they were, they had faith. They cared enough about their fellow men that they brought them to Christ. The other part I love about this and a few other verses throughout is that Christ healed all of them. He took the time to actually care for each of them. He didn't just perform His miracle as a testimony of His power and get out of town. He healed each of them that needed healing.
Matthew 8:23-27 Jesus and His disciples are on the ship with a raging tempest. Jesus slept as "the ship was covered with the waves." His disciples finally decided to wake Him. There's faith, right? Apparently not. Christ's response was, "Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith." What?? Essentially, this says to me, "Why in the world would you think I would let you drown? You are my disciples. You have work to do! Where is the faith I expected you to have?" Of course, He calmed the winds and the sea "and there was a great calm." Where is our faith? Do we ever think He is just letting us drown?
Matthew 8:28-34 Not gonna lie. This one is a little funky to me. Mostly the wording. "Two possessed with devils, coming out of the tombs, exceeding fierce [...] What have we to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of God? art thou come hither to torment us before the time?" And then the devils asked that they be sent into a pig's body as that would be better than no body at all. It seems even these devils - who knew exactly who Jesus was, the Son of God - had faith, yes faith, enough to ask for a little mercy concerning their banishment. Interesting.
Matthew 9:20-22; Mark 5:25-34 The woman with the issue of blood. She simply touched the hem of His garment and knew she would be healed. Christ felt the "virtue" or power go out of Him when she did. He knew her, even in a swarm of other people, and stopped to say "thy faith had made thee whole." Perfect faith.
Matthew 9:27-31 Jesus heals two blind men. They simply come to Him, He asks, "Believe ye that I am able to do this?" They said 'yes' and they were simply healed.
Mark 2:1-12 Another man with palsy, carried by four others to the house where Jesus was. The house was so crowded, though, that they uncovered the roof and lowered the sick man in. They were faithfully desperate. And as soon as Christ saw their faith, He healed this man too.
So many miracles. So great power! At times it can seem like God is not here for us anymore. Miracles like these don't abound like they did then. It's a different era, a different dispensation. But the truth is, miracles still occur. Whether they are obvious or not, they happen. As far as healing goes, I think it's a miracle that "ordinary" men can now heal as Jesus did. Of course, those ordinary men were truly blessed with light and knowledge from God that led to this great expansion of the medical world. That is healing power. Men with their medicine can heal leprosy and issues of bleeding. But that ultimate miracle - that miracle of being saved - can only come through Christ forgiving us of our sins and making us whole. But there needs to be faith first. Many say that there is no God or that He has abandoned us because we see a lack in expected miracles. Shame on us, we of little faith...
Exercise the faith and the miracle will follow. And you will notice it.
Friday, September 26, 2014
Born Again
I was raised in mostly Utah and Idaho in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Most of my friends were members or at least knew who we were and generally what we believed. Those who weren't members - I don't remember them being a part of any one set religion. Then I moved to Texas when I was 17. Almost everyone knew Jesus, which for some reason I did not expect. My first culture shock was when I moved to Saudi Arabia when I was 14, but I expected it to be a completely different world there. At 17, I traveled by car instead of 5 planes to get to this new place. I knew there was an LDS church building that we would go to so we wouldn't have to hold our own meetings in our home. But I had no idea there were so many other churches. I'd say I definitely grew up sheltered in the "jello belt" (what a previous professor likes to call Utah and Idaho). I had seen a little bit about how other churches were different on Tv; mostly that they were a little louder than our Sacrament meetings (unless you're in a ward full of toddlers). But I had never really interacted with many others and discussed religion, beliefs, standards, etc. I'd heard the phrase "born again" in movies, but couldn't recall hearing anyone exclaim it in person before I moved to San Antonio. And I obviously didn't study my scriptures very well because the phrase was just so foreign to me. It may not be a part of our Mormon vernacular, but it sure is part of our religion.
So, that's the topic I chose for this week's blog: born again. I love how literal some of the people in the scriptures are. As Jesus was speaking with Nicodemus, a Jewish ruler, in John Chapter 3, He tells him that he must be born again in order to see the kingdom of God. Nicodemus must have thought Christ was crazy to ask him to jump back into a womb as an old man. Really, Nico states, "How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?" (John 3:4) Some explanation is quite necessary for those of us with thick heads ;) Jesus goes on and explains, "Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God" (3:5). A few points here: First, He is obviously not talking about a literal rebirth from our mother again (Heaven knows she should only have to do that once for each kid!) Christ is speaking metaphorically of a different kind of birth, which I will get to next. Second, in verse 3 Christ uses the word "see" before the phrase "kingdom of God," whereas in verse 5 He uses the word "enter" instead. Without this rebirth, we can do neither.
But what's the difference? I love how these two ideas connect to a phrase in Moses 6:59 stating, "... even so ye must be born again ... that ye might be sanctified from all sin, and enjoy the words of eternal life in this world, and eternal life in the world to come, even immortal glory." To me, seeing the kingdom of God is hope in this life that we may one day have eternal life if we have been born again, and to enter into the kingdom would, of course, be to actually live eternally with Christ. It's a two-part blessing just as it is a two-part commitment.
But wait, once you're born again, isn't that it? This is what baffled me the most when talking religion in Texas. I've always thought of life as a - well, a life-long process of perfection, not simply a one-time occurrence somewhere between your mortal life and death where you accept Jesus and that's it. It's not a live-how-you-want-since-Jesus-is-your-Savior kind of deal once you are baptized. It's a process of not only believing Christ but being like Christ. Why in the world would He have lived a perfect life if He didn't expect us to follow Him? Especially when He says, "Come, follow me"? We must accept Christ, be born again, and then "walk in newness of life" (Romans 6:4). Now, I don't know about you, but I do not change easily. I don't become a new person in a day or in an hour. It's been two weeks since I quit my job and have been trying to transition to stay-at-home-mom, and I'm still as crazy as I was last Monday! They painted my downstairs carpet this week. It was fantastic. Lots of crying and screaming. But that's why we have this nice long life, right? It's a process of learning patience and temper control and patience again once we think we've mastered it.
It's not just about being baptized - born of the water - no matter what church you attend; it's also about being born of the Spirit - striving for that new life - with the Holy Ghost guiding us and Christ literally saving us from those shortcomings. Heavenly Father loves us all so much that He sent Christ to atone for all those shortcomings and transgressions and sins that we were bound to make. They both love all of us more than we can comprehend. And even though we - I can't be the only one who freaks out when the carpet gets painted - have a lot of things to get better at, Heavenly Father continues to bless us. He gives us those days to better ourselves because He loves us and wants us to come home, to enter the kingdom. We just have to decide to keep being born again every day.
So, that's the topic I chose for this week's blog: born again. I love how literal some of the people in the scriptures are. As Jesus was speaking with Nicodemus, a Jewish ruler, in John Chapter 3, He tells him that he must be born again in order to see the kingdom of God. Nicodemus must have thought Christ was crazy to ask him to jump back into a womb as an old man. Really, Nico states, "How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?" (John 3:4) Some explanation is quite necessary for those of us with thick heads ;) Jesus goes on and explains, "Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God" (3:5). A few points here: First, He is obviously not talking about a literal rebirth from our mother again (Heaven knows she should only have to do that once for each kid!) Christ is speaking metaphorically of a different kind of birth, which I will get to next. Second, in verse 3 Christ uses the word "see" before the phrase "kingdom of God," whereas in verse 5 He uses the word "enter" instead. Without this rebirth, we can do neither.
But what's the difference? I love how these two ideas connect to a phrase in Moses 6:59 stating, "... even so ye must be born again ... that ye might be sanctified from all sin, and enjoy the words of eternal life in this world, and eternal life in the world to come, even immortal glory." To me, seeing the kingdom of God is hope in this life that we may one day have eternal life if we have been born again, and to enter into the kingdom would, of course, be to actually live eternally with Christ. It's a two-part blessing just as it is a two-part commitment.
But wait, once you're born again, isn't that it? This is what baffled me the most when talking religion in Texas. I've always thought of life as a - well, a life-long process of perfection, not simply a one-time occurrence somewhere between your mortal life and death where you accept Jesus and that's it. It's not a live-how-you-want-since-Jesus-is-your-Savior kind of deal once you are baptized. It's a process of not only believing Christ but being like Christ. Why in the world would He have lived a perfect life if He didn't expect us to follow Him? Especially when He says, "Come, follow me"? We must accept Christ, be born again, and then "walk in newness of life" (Romans 6:4). Now, I don't know about you, but I do not change easily. I don't become a new person in a day or in an hour. It's been two weeks since I quit my job and have been trying to transition to stay-at-home-mom, and I'm still as crazy as I was last Monday! They painted my downstairs carpet this week. It was fantastic. Lots of crying and screaming. But that's why we have this nice long life, right? It's a process of learning patience and temper control and patience again once we think we've mastered it.
It's not just about being baptized - born of the water - no matter what church you attend; it's also about being born of the Spirit - striving for that new life - with the Holy Ghost guiding us and Christ literally saving us from those shortcomings. Heavenly Father loves us all so much that He sent Christ to atone for all those shortcomings and transgressions and sins that we were bound to make. They both love all of us more than we can comprehend. And even though we - I can't be the only one who freaks out when the carpet gets painted - have a lot of things to get better at, Heavenly Father continues to bless us. He gives us those days to better ourselves because He loves us and wants us to come home, to enter the kingdom. We just have to decide to keep being born again every day.
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Christ's Childhood
Why, yes, it has been since April since I've posted. It has been a crazy few months! More on that later in a separate post :)
This semester I am taking a New Testament class and one of the projects is a weekly... something. We choose from a number of options and topics and do what we want. I figured this would be the best way to share my thoughts and feelings about the things I study this semester. This was the first week of classes and hence my first post in this series. I chose the topic of the childhood of Christ.
The thing that stuck out to me most while studying what was given was that Christ started out like most children. In Luke we learn that Christ stuck around the temple after his parents had started heading home and they had no idea. He scared them to death! My kids do that once in a while. Even if Christ knew that he would be fine and was doing what he was supposed to, he missed the important relay of info to Mary or Joseph and really frightened them.
We often think of Christ as being born with all His knowledge and omniscience, but in the institute manual we learn that Christ had to overcome the veil throughout His mortality. We also learn in Doctrine and Covenants section 93 that He learned just like we do, just like children do: line upon line. In verse 13 it states, "And he received not of the fulness at first, but continued from grace to grace, until he received a fulness." My kids do that, too. This part actually give me hope, especially this week, that children can learn and become a little better each day.
We had a rough week this week. It was my first week being home with the kids all day in 2 years. It's true that it's hard being a working mom, especially last semester while going to school as well, but being a stay-at-home-mom is a whole new kind of hard for me, one that I'm really not used to. It's sad, really; I'm not used to my kids. I'm used to them on the weekends and doing fun things, feeding them dinner and getting them to bed, but I'm definitely not used to the messes and the loud and the fighting. But we're all learning a little at a time. Next week will be a little better than this week, and I'm sure the week after next will be better yet. Even Christ had to learn that you should tell your parents where you are going and had to learn things from his mortal parents about how to conduct himself. I can learn to be a better stay-at-home-mom, and my kids will learn (hopefully) that it's not okay to spill pickle juice all over the floor and then smash cereal into it. We all work on learning grace to grace until we become like Him. I'm so thankful for this Gospel that teaches me that :) and I'm so grateful for Christ's example, even his example in childhood.
This semester I am taking a New Testament class and one of the projects is a weekly... something. We choose from a number of options and topics and do what we want. I figured this would be the best way to share my thoughts and feelings about the things I study this semester. This was the first week of classes and hence my first post in this series. I chose the topic of the childhood of Christ.
The thing that stuck out to me most while studying what was given was that Christ started out like most children. In Luke we learn that Christ stuck around the temple after his parents had started heading home and they had no idea. He scared them to death! My kids do that once in a while. Even if Christ knew that he would be fine and was doing what he was supposed to, he missed the important relay of info to Mary or Joseph and really frightened them.
We often think of Christ as being born with all His knowledge and omniscience, but in the institute manual we learn that Christ had to overcome the veil throughout His mortality. We also learn in Doctrine and Covenants section 93 that He learned just like we do, just like children do: line upon line. In verse 13 it states, "And he received not of the fulness at first, but continued from grace to grace, until he received a fulness." My kids do that, too. This part actually give me hope, especially this week, that children can learn and become a little better each day.
We had a rough week this week. It was my first week being home with the kids all day in 2 years. It's true that it's hard being a working mom, especially last semester while going to school as well, but being a stay-at-home-mom is a whole new kind of hard for me, one that I'm really not used to. It's sad, really; I'm not used to my kids. I'm used to them on the weekends and doing fun things, feeding them dinner and getting them to bed, but I'm definitely not used to the messes and the loud and the fighting. But we're all learning a little at a time. Next week will be a little better than this week, and I'm sure the week after next will be better yet. Even Christ had to learn that you should tell your parents where you are going and had to learn things from his mortal parents about how to conduct himself. I can learn to be a better stay-at-home-mom, and my kids will learn (hopefully) that it's not okay to spill pickle juice all over the floor and then smash cereal into it. We all work on learning grace to grace until we become like Him. I'm so thankful for this Gospel that teaches me that :) and I'm so grateful for Christ's example, even his example in childhood.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
And Then We Were Homeowners
We bought a house!! As most everyone knows by now ;) Usually our last-minute decisions don't work out this well ha! One night in February Levi suggested we look into buying a house in Idaho Falls. It was in the future plans, but I thought it would be more like next-year-future. I told him that if he got everything set up and put together then we would buy a house. No doubt he was getting tired of the commute from Pocatello to Idaho Falls (50 min) 5 days a week.
So we applied for a home loan online - much easier than I thought it would be - either that night or the next, I don't remember. We were pre-qualified in 2 days, and we had set up with a realtor to look at homes that weekend. Our realtor, Connie, had done a voice over testimonial for a commercial Levi made the month before, so that's how we found her :) And we absolutely loved her! She took us on Valentine's day to see 5 houses and then 5 more the next day. We had been looking at one online that we liked and she showed it to us on the first day. We still liked it - I didn't like it quite as much after seeing it in person ;) The others were okay, but I couldn't see myself living in any of them until the 9th house on day 2. We really liked that one! Which then made it difficult because we had two contenders. Gah! However, after looking at the 9th house while driving to the very last one Levi said, "Look, this last one will just blow all the others out of the water ha!" And it totally did!! As soon as we saw it we knew we wanted it! We made an offer right then, and the sellers accepted the next day!
The next part was the super stressful and make-you-wanna-pull-your-hair-out part. Getting paperwork together, reading and signing things, homeowners online class, more paperwork, disclosures and escrow and truth in lending and appraisal and inspection and more paperwork.... We finally - but now looking back, rather quickly - owned our first house! It took just over a month from seeing it for the first time to getting the keys :) Of course, that Monday we got new keys from changing the locks ;)
The Friday after we bought the house - the day before we moved everything in - Levi, his mom and stepdad and I painted part of the house. We actually got everything done in one night that I had hoped to get done - the paint I didn't think I could live happily with for too long. It's just so much easier to paint with nothing in the way, so we painted the family room upstairs, the hallway, the entry way, the master bedroom, and the fireplace downstairs for a pop of color :)
I had taken three days off work the following week and put the upstairs of the house together. The downstairs is a different story and will be for a while. In the meantime, here are the happy parts of the house:
Other changes/updates in the last month: I still have no idea what my future in nursing education holds... I'm just keepin' on at BYUI until I officially don't have a reason to, but I've also applied to EITC and ISU, so we'll see. I did officially decide what to do with my current career... thanks to my wonderful job that allowed me to stick around, I have cut back to 3 days a week working in Pocatello - because I really do love my job that much. I'm excited to keep working for the midwives and to be home with my littles more as well. It's perfect! Levi, on the other hand, loves being home so soon after work and even coming home for lunch often :)
Our 5 year anniversary is this Thursday, and what a great 5 years it has been! Lots of changes, lots of moves, two degrees, two kids, and one house to call our own <3
So we applied for a home loan online - much easier than I thought it would be - either that night or the next, I don't remember. We were pre-qualified in 2 days, and we had set up with a realtor to look at homes that weekend. Our realtor, Connie, had done a voice over testimonial for a commercial Levi made the month before, so that's how we found her :) And we absolutely loved her! She took us on Valentine's day to see 5 houses and then 5 more the next day. We had been looking at one online that we liked and she showed it to us on the first day. We still liked it - I didn't like it quite as much after seeing it in person ;) The others were okay, but I couldn't see myself living in any of them until the 9th house on day 2. We really liked that one! Which then made it difficult because we had two contenders. Gah! However, after looking at the 9th house while driving to the very last one Levi said, "Look, this last one will just blow all the others out of the water ha!" And it totally did!! As soon as we saw it we knew we wanted it! We made an offer right then, and the sellers accepted the next day!
The next part was the super stressful and make-you-wanna-pull-your-hair-out part. Getting paperwork together, reading and signing things, homeowners online class, more paperwork, disclosures and escrow and truth in lending and appraisal and inspection and more paperwork.... We finally - but now looking back, rather quickly - owned our first house! It took just over a month from seeing it for the first time to getting the keys :) Of course, that Monday we got new keys from changing the locks ;)
The Friday after we bought the house - the day before we moved everything in - Levi, his mom and stepdad and I painted part of the house. We actually got everything done in one night that I had hoped to get done - the paint I didn't think I could live happily with for too long. It's just so much easier to paint with nothing in the way, so we painted the family room upstairs, the hallway, the entry way, the master bedroom, and the fireplace downstairs for a pop of color :)
I had taken three days off work the following week and put the upstairs of the house together. The downstairs is a different story and will be for a while. In the meantime, here are the happy parts of the house:
The entry way that was only half-painted before
The yellow really is more muted than it looks in the pictures.
The master bedroom that was tan before. I'm just not a fan and have always wanted a bold bedroom. There is enough natural light in the room that this navy blue really works, I think. And Via ready for bed watching Heffalump in our room. And you don't get to see the rest of the room because it truly is a disaster right now!
The family room that was also tan before. I'm really, really loving the grey on the walls now!
The dirty fireplace :) It's wasn't spectaularly clean when we moved in, and we've used it quite a bit ourselves already. Love me some marshmallows!
Notice the sink is empty because I'm loving my dishwasher!!
I did this the Monday after we moved in... because I can!
Tea station
And I grow things now! My seedlings getting ready to transplant to the raised bed in the backyard (we put that together last weekend :)
Cute kitchen features
Laundry room with lots of potential ;)
3rd bathroom - downstairs - with at least the same amount of potential as the laundry room
Downstairs fireplace, which we oddly haven't used yet
Story behind this baby: The Friday that we were painting I started getting all cute and asthmatic. It got better after we went home to Pocatello, but then started up again as we were moving in; the wonderful cat dander that came with the house and the exercise from moving put me into full on asthma attack by Sunday, and my inhaler was definitely not cuttin' it. We're talking urgent care clinic, albuterol treatment and a shot of prednisone Sunday night. We bought this HEPA filter in hopes of cleaning up the air from the allergens, and it has definitely been worth it! I think I've only had to use my inhaler twice since then - sexy, right? Really, though, I think most of the change came with the blessing on the house that Levi performed. I don't think it hurt that we were trying everything we could, though: cleaning air vents, covering them with cheesecloth, dusting and wiping everything... I'm just glad I can breathe. I like breathing.
And my craft room with boxes yet to be unpacked and gone through
Other changes/updates in the last month: I still have no idea what my future in nursing education holds... I'm just keepin' on at BYUI until I officially don't have a reason to, but I've also applied to EITC and ISU, so we'll see. I did officially decide what to do with my current career... thanks to my wonderful job that allowed me to stick around, I have cut back to 3 days a week working in Pocatello - because I really do love my job that much. I'm excited to keep working for the midwives and to be home with my littles more as well. It's perfect! Levi, on the other hand, loves being home so soon after work and even coming home for lunch often :)
Our 5 year anniversary is this Thursday, and what a great 5 years it has been! Lots of changes, lots of moves, two degrees, two kids, and one house to call our own <3
Thursday, March 6, 2014
And Then They Change Again
Can I just be settled for one minute?? I'm a little fed up with all this plans changing stuff. It makes me feel like I have no idea what I really want in my life - besides the two kiddos I have.
Of course I would question having more kids after dropping a grand on a surgery meant to let me have more kids (full term).
Of course the BYUI nursing program would temporarily be shut down right before I start my journey toward applying for it (still under investigation...).
Of course we would buy a house and move right when I felt like I was getting super competent in my job *Disclaimer: I love love love the house we are buying, I do think it's a good move for us, and it was totally a steal* but I hate that I am leaving Pocatello and most likely my job. And Levi's family. And my yoga instructor. And my masseuse. Seriously.
Can things just stop changing? Can my babies stop growing? Can I just stop for a little while? I'm exhausted.
So... do we have more kids? I dunno. I've gotta leave that one up to Heavenly Father. I have no idea. The last few days I just haven't wanted any more. Mine are so stinkin' cute, but they're a handful. Especially if I'm going back to school.
So... not nursing?? The ultimate goal was Nurse Practitioner, but if I just get my Bachelor's then I can (hopefully) become a Physician Assistant. They're both midlevels. I would get my provider fix. The only downside to not getting my RN is that I wouldn't have the option to become a midwife if I wanted to. I like the idea of catching babies, but I've never actually caught one, so I really have no idea if that's what I would want to do. I obviously have no idea what I really want to do career wise. I thought I had this figured out ten years ago...
Ten years ago I wanted to become a pediatric cardiologist. I loved the heart. I loved my own peds cardiologists. But, as things usually do, my loves have changed...well, expanded. I loved the feel of the NICU even though my babies were all sorts of connected to wires and monitors. I love my job now even though the I study the vagina ;) I loved *most* of my rotations in high school including ultrasound... I especially love using the ultrasound at work. I love watching surgeries and assisting on procedures. I think I would love just about anything I fell into, which means my options are pretty wide open. I just have to figure out what road to actually take. I'm positive this is not the last time my plans will end up changing. They say the only constant is change. How very, very true...
Of course I would question having more kids after dropping a grand on a surgery meant to let me have more kids (full term).
Of course the BYUI nursing program would temporarily be shut down right before I start my journey toward applying for it (still under investigation...).
Of course we would buy a house and move right when I felt like I was getting super competent in my job *Disclaimer: I love love love the house we are buying, I do think it's a good move for us, and it was totally a steal* but I hate that I am leaving Pocatello and most likely my job. And Levi's family. And my yoga instructor. And my masseuse. Seriously.
Can things just stop changing? Can my babies stop growing? Can I just stop for a little while? I'm exhausted.
So... do we have more kids? I dunno. I've gotta leave that one up to Heavenly Father. I have no idea. The last few days I just haven't wanted any more. Mine are so stinkin' cute, but they're a handful. Especially if I'm going back to school.
So... not nursing?? The ultimate goal was Nurse Practitioner, but if I just get my Bachelor's then I can (hopefully) become a Physician Assistant. They're both midlevels. I would get my provider fix. The only downside to not getting my RN is that I wouldn't have the option to become a midwife if I wanted to. I like the idea of catching babies, but I've never actually caught one, so I really have no idea if that's what I would want to do. I obviously have no idea what I really want to do career wise. I thought I had this figured out ten years ago...
Ten years ago I wanted to become a pediatric cardiologist. I loved the heart. I loved my own peds cardiologists. But, as things usually do, my loves have changed...well, expanded. I loved the feel of the NICU even though my babies were all sorts of connected to wires and monitors. I love my job now even though the I study the vagina ;) I loved *most* of my rotations in high school including ultrasound... I especially love using the ultrasound at work. I love watching surgeries and assisting on procedures. I think I would love just about anything I fell into, which means my options are pretty wide open. I just have to figure out what road to actually take. I'm positive this is not the last time my plans will end up changing. They say the only constant is change. How very, very true...
Thursday, January 23, 2014
And Then Sometimes They Work Out
It's really a great feeling when your plans finally do work out the way you hoped they would ;)
Surgery went great! It was successful, and I recovered quickly. Also, I love general anesthesia. That was the best nap I've had in 3 years!! I didn't wake up super groggy and sick from hours of surgery like I did with my valve replacement. I was way comfortable and felt so stinkin' refreshed! I slept most of that day off and on, and I definitely remember the car ride home as I was zoning in and out. I may or may not have almost hit my head on the dashboard a few times. I don't know. But the next day I was back to work and feeling great!
I loved that our plan that had been in the works for almost a year finally went through and everything went wonderfully! Let's hope our next plan to have another little this year will fall into place. If not, that's okay. As long as I get pregnant at least sometime in the future because we just spent a butt load on surgery ;)
As for the plan to be Coke-free: it's going well, actually. I'm not craving it nearly as bad as I thought I would... yet. I have started craving chocolate like a maniac, though. Substitution? Probably. At least it's less caffeine, right??
Also, this month I have been re-accepted to BYUI in hopes of getting into their nursing program (online classes for this year to prep for applying). I also was assigned the Spring/Fall track that I was hoping for. I don't do well in the snow and cold, and going during the winter last time seriously made it hard to even go to classes, let alone warm up and pay attention :)
All in all it's been a really great month! Things can keep up like this all year; that would be just fine with me!! Welcome, 2014!
Surgery went great! It was successful, and I recovered quickly. Also, I love general anesthesia. That was the best nap I've had in 3 years!! I didn't wake up super groggy and sick from hours of surgery like I did with my valve replacement. I was way comfortable and felt so stinkin' refreshed! I slept most of that day off and on, and I definitely remember the car ride home as I was zoning in and out. I may or may not have almost hit my head on the dashboard a few times. I don't know. But the next day I was back to work and feeling great!
I loved that our plan that had been in the works for almost a year finally went through and everything went wonderfully! Let's hope our next plan to have another little this year will fall into place. If not, that's okay. As long as I get pregnant at least sometime in the future because we just spent a butt load on surgery ;)
As for the plan to be Coke-free: it's going well, actually. I'm not craving it nearly as bad as I thought I would... yet. I have started craving chocolate like a maniac, though. Substitution? Probably. At least it's less caffeine, right??
Also, this month I have been re-accepted to BYUI in hopes of getting into their nursing program (online classes for this year to prep for applying). I also was assigned the Spring/Fall track that I was hoping for. I don't do well in the snow and cold, and going during the winter last time seriously made it hard to even go to classes, let alone warm up and pay attention :)
All in all it's been a really great month! Things can keep up like this all year; that would be just fine with me!! Welcome, 2014!
Friday, January 10, 2014
And Another New Year
These years are just flying by! I swear they didn't go this fast when I was younger. And we're already ten days in...
So, let's talk resolutions and plans. Shout out to my girl, Kayla Lemmon, who wrote an awesome post on resolutions and making small daily goals and doing something today instead of huge yearly ones. You can read her post here :) Although my attempt last year broke the larger goals down into smaller, daily or weekly ones, it was still too much to handle. Too much to take on at once, and once again failing the idea of New Year Resolutions.
However, a new year does bring with it a feeling of a fresh start, a chance for changes and new plans. Sometimes we are forced to make new plans, but whatever ;) It's a nice feeling that comes with the new year, and I think we should take that for all it's worth. If you can make several resolutions and stick to them, go for it! If you're like me and can only handle one per year, stick to it and relish in the progress! So I've made one single goal for the year - no Coke. Less to focus on since my focus is already pulled in several different directions on a daily basis!
As for planning and making new plans... Well, let's just say I was recently reminded of why I went through a "no planning" phase. They never seems to work out the way you want them to.
Case Study 1: For almost a year we have been planning on doing a surgery that should help keep babies baking a little longer in my oven. I had it scheduled for January 9th (yesterday) for about a month. I was getting super excited!! And then I got sick :( Lucas got pneumonia this week, and I mush have caught it or part of it or something. The day before the planned surgery I just went downhill from cough to chills to body aches to congestion to more coughing to crap. While I'm glad that we called off the surgery for this week because I feel like poo, I was super discouraged to have to push it back. I had a bit of a meltdown. At work. Because I'm a loser. But I cried it out and got back to work. I figured it all out (Levi taking work off, someone to cover me at work, etc.) to do it next week, and that's what we're shooting for.
Case Study 2: I'd been thinking for a while about going back to school and *retaking a class online in preparation to apply to the nursing program at BYU-I. I finally got around to (calling and reseting my password because apparently it went wacko when I graduated) reapplying and researching nursing program requirements and found that I really need 3 classes before I have a good chance of getting in :/ This pushes my plan back a semester. Gah. Oh, well. At least it's the first step to my overall plan for nursing and eventually some kind of provider. I haven't decided yet. Probably because there's something else Heavenly Father has in mind to change mine.
These were the biggest things of recent. I think they hit me so hard because I had finally felt like we were stabilizing, like things were falling into place and we had at least some semi-solid (Jello) plans for the future. No more wondering where we were going to be the next month, and although we still have that, I guess I just expected all of our other plans to work out the way we wanted them to. But as I was interviewing with the Stake Presidency counselor (for ecclesiastical endorsement in order to apply to church schools) I mentioned something about plans changing and that's why I was **reapplying. He reminded me that it's not our plans that really matter, it's God's plans for us. His plans for us will always work out as long as we are living the way we should. That's it. Plain and simple. Donezo. So what does that say if my plans are always falling through? I'm sure you've heard the adage "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans." Yeah, that's me.
Really, though, we may think we know what's best for us, but we don't always. Our Heavenly Father is omniscient; He knows what is best for us and will guide us in numerous ways to help us succeed in all things as long as we are willing to let Him. I'm a big believer in all things happening for a reason... Maybe there was some hidden reason why I pushing my school plans back a semester or why I wasn't supposed to have surgery yesterday. I dunno. But I do know that I trust my Father in Heaven to bring me to what is best for me.
Well, we will go on planning because I learned a long time ago that you can't really go through life without one, but hopefully I will get better at aligning my plans with God's so I don't lose my mind every time mine fail ;)
So, as long as our plans don't change (which I'm sure they will), in 2014 we are looking forward to....
Welcoming a new full-term baby to the family
Celebrating 5 years of marriage (that had better not change!)
Moving to Idaho Falls so Levi doesn't have to commute anymore
A trip to Texas
Acing my classes
*I have to retake the first part of Anat & Phys since apparently I sucked at going to school while pregnant!
**I applied for graduation with my Associate's in anticipation of us moving somewhere far away wherever Levi got a job. I didn't want to hold him back while I finished school. I never guessed that he would end up with a job in Idaho Falls!
So, let's talk resolutions and plans. Shout out to my girl, Kayla Lemmon, who wrote an awesome post on resolutions and making small daily goals and doing something today instead of huge yearly ones. You can read her post here :) Although my attempt last year broke the larger goals down into smaller, daily or weekly ones, it was still too much to handle. Too much to take on at once, and once again failing the idea of New Year Resolutions.
However, a new year does bring with it a feeling of a fresh start, a chance for changes and new plans. Sometimes we are forced to make new plans, but whatever ;) It's a nice feeling that comes with the new year, and I think we should take that for all it's worth. If you can make several resolutions and stick to them, go for it! If you're like me and can only handle one per year, stick to it and relish in the progress! So I've made one single goal for the year - no Coke. Less to focus on since my focus is already pulled in several different directions on a daily basis!
As for planning and making new plans... Well, let's just say I was recently reminded of why I went through a "no planning" phase. They never seems to work out the way you want them to.
Case Study 1: For almost a year we have been planning on doing a surgery that should help keep babies baking a little longer in my oven. I had it scheduled for January 9th (yesterday) for about a month. I was getting super excited!! And then I got sick :( Lucas got pneumonia this week, and I mush have caught it or part of it or something. The day before the planned surgery I just went downhill from cough to chills to body aches to congestion to more coughing to crap. While I'm glad that we called off the surgery for this week because I feel like poo, I was super discouraged to have to push it back. I had a bit of a meltdown. At work. Because I'm a loser. But I cried it out and got back to work. I figured it all out (Levi taking work off, someone to cover me at work, etc.) to do it next week, and that's what we're shooting for.
Case Study 2: I'd been thinking for a while about going back to school and *retaking a class online in preparation to apply to the nursing program at BYU-I. I finally got around to (calling and reseting my password because apparently it went wacko when I graduated) reapplying and researching nursing program requirements and found that I really need 3 classes before I have a good chance of getting in :/ This pushes my plan back a semester. Gah. Oh, well. At least it's the first step to my overall plan for nursing and eventually some kind of provider. I haven't decided yet. Probably because there's something else Heavenly Father has in mind to change mine.
These were the biggest things of recent. I think they hit me so hard because I had finally felt like we were stabilizing, like things were falling into place and we had at least some semi-solid (Jello) plans for the future. No more wondering where we were going to be the next month, and although we still have that, I guess I just expected all of our other plans to work out the way we wanted them to. But as I was interviewing with the Stake Presidency counselor (for ecclesiastical endorsement in order to apply to church schools) I mentioned something about plans changing and that's why I was **reapplying. He reminded me that it's not our plans that really matter, it's God's plans for us. His plans for us will always work out as long as we are living the way we should. That's it. Plain and simple. Donezo. So what does that say if my plans are always falling through? I'm sure you've heard the adage "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans." Yeah, that's me.
Really, though, we may think we know what's best for us, but we don't always. Our Heavenly Father is omniscient; He knows what is best for us and will guide us in numerous ways to help us succeed in all things as long as we are willing to let Him. I'm a big believer in all things happening for a reason... Maybe there was some hidden reason why I pushing my school plans back a semester or why I wasn't supposed to have surgery yesterday. I dunno. But I do know that I trust my Father in Heaven to bring me to what is best for me.
Well, we will go on planning because I learned a long time ago that you can't really go through life without one, but hopefully I will get better at aligning my plans with God's so I don't lose my mind every time mine fail ;)
So, as long as our plans don't change (which I'm sure they will), in 2014 we are looking forward to....
Welcoming a new full-term baby to the family
Celebrating 5 years of marriage (that had better not change!)
Moving to Idaho Falls so Levi doesn't have to commute anymore
A trip to Texas
Acing my classes
*I have to retake the first part of Anat & Phys since apparently I sucked at going to school while pregnant!
**I applied for graduation with my Associate's in anticipation of us moving somewhere far away wherever Levi got a job. I didn't want to hold him back while I finished school. I never guessed that he would end up with a job in Idaho Falls!
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