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Once again, way too long since I last blogged. Can you tell we've been a little crazy lately??

Well, I finally finished the Sacrament talk I will be giving in about 9 hours. I seriously thought about it all week and couldn't decide which direction to go. Then the week just flew by and before I knew it, it was Saturday. And, of course, now that I'm done, I'm not tired... at 1 am. Go me.

There are so many things that I have been meaning to blog about lately. I keep adding them to the mental list in my head. Now that I'm writing, can I think of any that made the list?? No.

So.... I'll just write and see if I can think of them along the way ;)

Christmas: Was good. Quite. Messy. We had Christmas Eve dinner at Levi's mom's house, which was fun. Then we just had our little Christmas morning here. Somehow I managed to tear the clear covering (bulbar conjunctiva) around my eyeball. When I no longer have insurance, of course. (Between student insurance and my 90 days at my company. I start company insurance in Feb.) I could see where it actually tore, so I was freaking out a bit. But! No worries. Apparently the eye heals at superhero speed because within an hour or so it was back to normal. No more symptoms, no more tear. Weird, right?
We did take pictures and a few videos, but I'm honestly too lazy to post them right now. They should be up on Facebook soon :)

Jobs: We got a real nice heartbreak as Levi was turned down most recently for a job at Kiewit. I cried. A lot. Multiple times. I felt so good about that job, and I never really felt good about the ones before, even if I wanted him to get them. So that one was a big let down for both of us. I know people say, "There must be something better in store for you then!" Well, what if there's not? At least not in the next few years? I know, I know. Trusting in the Lord means trusting in His timing as well. I know things will look up eventually, but right now they are just a little bleak when it comes to the job world. Patience, Shaeli. Patience.

Working Mom Act: Still no good at it. I never did have any interest in learning how to juggle objects. I don't think I have any interest in learning how to juggle responsibility. I'm more of a "do one thing, then move on" type of person. I don't have that option right now, and it's really starting to get to me. I thought leaving the kids at daycare would get easier instead of harder as time went on. Not so. I thought I would be able to become more organized with things like dinner and cleaning instead of less organized. Not so. I'm sure most of this is just because it's the holidays and things are extra crazy right now, but I feel like I'm falling apart at the seams. A piece of me needs to work. And a piece of me needs to play with the kids. And a piece of me needs to do the dishes and the laundry and vacuum. And a piece of me needs to spend time with my husband. And a piece of me needs to just blog or watch Grey's. And I can't do it. I feel like I can't do any of it. I feel like so much of me is being pulled every which way that there isn't enough of one piece to actually accomplish anything! I thought life would get easier once we were out of school and we fell into a nice work/home routine. Not so.

Of course, all this thinking spins me into a whole new line of, "How in the world would I handle furthering my education? How could I ever handle NP school or med school when I can't even handle the dishes and the screaming children??" I understand that the children won't scream forever - heaven help me if they do - but things don't stop. I'm gonna have kids for a while. I'm gonna be married for a while - heaven help me if I'm not. There will always be dishes and laundry and whatever. I know things will work out. They will. I just don't know how to do them right now.

Lucas: Talking like crazy!! The things he says lately are so cute :) He's a little monster at times, but man! He says some cute stuff. I love seeing more of his personality every day. I love watching him interact with Via, as long as he's not jumping or sitting on her. He loves her. He gets excited when he sees her in the morning. He shares with her. He gives her hugs. And he even says "sorry" after he pushes her down ;)

Via: Walking everywhere!! She's just a little person roaming my house making noise. I got Levi some work boots today and she's about the same size as the box they came in! She's teething a lot lately, so that makes her a little cranky at times, but mostly she's just a happy little one year old waddling around the house with a mullet :) She said her first word the other day - beside Mama and Dada: Elmo. It seems we have another Elmo lover on our hands!

Well, that about sums up our life during the last month. It's a good life. I'm so grateful for my little family, and all of our extended family. We just keep counting our blessings and looking forward to the future :)